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As Film Studies
Focusing on the mise-en-scene and Cinematography analyse how far the opening sequence of Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid explores the themes of anachronism and the Western myth.


Using the mise-en-scene in the opening sequence I am going to see how Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid explores anachronism and Western Myth.
The whole film is about anachronism and western myth.
The opening sequence of Butch Cassidy starts with the twentieth century fox logo, and theme, in sepia, the sequence ends when the film goes into colour.
Anachronism is one of Butch Cassidy’s themes, it means, ‘One that is out of its proper or chronological order, especially a person or practice that belongs to an earlier time,’ which describes Butch Cassidy and Sundance Kid well.
The western myth is a fictitious account of an event, which represents aspects of a culture.

Butch Cassidy and The Sundance Kid opens in sepia, its been presented to us like this for a reason, the twentieth century fox logo and the sequence up until Butch and Sundance ride off is in sepia.
The colour sepia connotates old, in the past, and old fashioned, which is perfectly linked with anachronism. The use of sepia creates the feeling of the past, and lets us know that Butch Cassidy belongs in it. The sepia suggests we are looking back, reminiscing.

After the twentieth century fox logo, we can hear the clicking of a projector and then see a screen with the scene to the left of us, telling us “The Hole in The Wall Gang, led by Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid, are all dead now.”
It becomes clear we are watching a film within a film. The film we are watching is a western, which is self-reflexive of its genre, the film, is a copy of the original western Edwin .S. Porters The Great Train Robbery.
The film itself is a reminder of a simpler time, because we see the quality of the film within the film and we know the quality of the actual film.
It’s a modern filmic technique, it shows progression from watching the film, within the film.
The font, however doesn’t fit in wit the homage, it is a contrast, the font is very typical of the sixties, but that re-enforces the idea we are looking back, and that we have moved on and progressed since then.
The homage, is glorifying the Western era and using Butch Cassidy, to lay the Western to rest, the tribute, is to show that Butch Cassidy knows its own heritage and is aware of its genre, but understands it had once been top, but not anymore.

Butch Cassidy’ uses some of the binary oppositions set by Will Wright. The idea that Butch and Sundance are wilderness versus the civilisation is true, we see the pair try and get a job, which is part of the civilization but we also see them in there elements.

We can tell Butch Cassidy and Sundance belong in the past, and are anachronistic, due to the sequence where we first see Butch, we see him framed with him behind bars, suggesting he has no future, the other reason we can see this is through the layout, just like the title sequence, he is framed to the left, signifying the past and the right is black, signifying no future.
Instead of the buildings been made out of wood, they are now made out of brick, these buildings are permanent. These are icons of progress.
He doesn’t know how to deal with the new world, we can tell this by him being out of focus, the old American dream is over, and this is the new world.
Butch goes into a bank, a place he is more familiar like, to get his bearings back, he goes to check it out, but from the tracking shot to point of view shot, we can see what he sees and that is that he is surrounded by bricks, things are changing, and by using bricks, he is discovering civilization and the darkness suggests that this is not his territory anymore.
As he leaves the bank, he comments to the guard about how the bank has changed the guard replies that the had to be made because the bank kept being robbed-to which Butch says ‘Small price to pay for beauty’. This establishes Butch a little sad. He refers to the bank as it used to be, but he also refers to the way of his old life and the way things used to be.
The bank now is clearly unfamiliar to him, as is the way the world is changing.
The closing signs around him, and the clock ticking down only make it more obvious that his time is coming to an end.

It is only when we get to see Sundance for the first time, do we get to see the conventional western, we see him in a saloon, made out of wood, this is familiar territory for the both of them, and we can see that the cowboys are playing cards, which is re-enforcing the western myth of cowboys gambling.
We see that Sundance is winning and another cowboy is threatened and accuses him of cheating, and this causes disruption, which will conventionally be solved in a gun fight.
The fight never happens because once the other player realises that he is fighting with Sundance he drops the fight and Sundance triumphs, but without showing off his skills with a gun. Which are very impressive and show he is a very skilled gun fighter, reminding us that he is a representative of the ideology of the Western culture. The argument is ‘resolved’ when Sundance’s name is revealed to his opponent, and he recognises him as being the famous gunfighter. This supports the idea that of the western myth. Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid’ is not a western in the conventional but it sticks to western iconography and is aware of its heritage.

The above reasons I can say that Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid explores the themes of anachronism and western myth by using mise-en-scene, and by using the characters to explore it also.
The anachronism is Butch and Sundance and the western myth is their lifestyle.

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Sociology Coursework
‘Are young women still positive towards marriage?’

Hypothesis
My hypothesis is that young women are still positive towards marriage.

Aim
My aim in this project is to find out what young women’s attitudes towards marriage are at my college.
I have chosen this area to research and collect data from, as I find it interesting as marriage is a big decision and a lot of women are very pro-marriage and a lot of women are anti-marriage.
The popularity of marriage did decrease in the nineties due to the rise of the ‘women,’ when men were pressured due to the woman becoming stronger, many women had decided to raise a family by themselves, they wanted independence that they deserved!
During my childhood marriage was decreasing and had become less popular with the youth of the nineties, I believe a lot of the dying popularity was to do with The Spice Girls, as they were the most popular British band of the mid-nineties, and they promoted ‘Girl Power,’ which I believe gave women the idea that marriage wasn’t so important, and it was all about sticking up for the girls.
Although Girl Power began a lot earlier than the Spice Girls and dates back to the feminism that arose in the 19th century, and with the Suffragettes.
But even before the Spice Girls the decline in marriage was becoming apparent in 1981, marriage had declined from 7.1 marriages to 5.9 marriages in 1993, even the average age in men marrying had increased, with people waiting longer to get married, in 1974 the average man would get married at 24, but in 1993, the average man is waiting till he is 28+.
I have found my information in the Wilson and Kidd textbook.






























Background information
www.aifs.gov.au/institute/pubs/fm1/fm29/fm29.html
The Institute's 1990 Becoming Adult study examined, among other things, the attitudes to marriage and expectations of marriage in a group of 23- year-olds, the results they came up with from both sexes ended up in this chart;

The meaning of marriage: types of response by sex
Men Women
Lifetime commitment, permanence: 64% 57%
Responsibility - children, house: 24% 29%
Caring, sharing, support each other: 13% 28% Trust, honest, love 8% 22%
Outdated or irrrelevant institution 8% 14%
Stability, security 2% 17%
Generally important 8% 11%
Compatibility, happiness, bonding 7% 9%
Very wary, sceptical about it 10% 6%
Not sure, have not considered it 9% 0%
Note:
Percentages total more than 100 because people could list as many responses as they liked.
The most frequent response, regardless of sex, was that marriage is a 'lifetime commitment' or means a 'permanent relationship'. Women more often than men mentioned caring, sharing, support, honesty, trust and love (50 per cent compared with 21 per cent). They also more often spoke of stability and security as aspects of marriage (17 per cent compared with 2 per cent). Although there were both women and men who said they were opposed to marriage as an institution, only men said they were unsure of its meaning. One young man said: 'It probably doesn't mean a lot to me because I haven't really given it a great deal of thought




















Methodology
For the practical part of my project on young women’s attitudes to marriage I am using stratified random sampling I am using females from my college and splitting the group into 5 by giving questionnaires to 5 different tutor groups I am giving 5 each to, to 2 AS tutor groups and 5 each to 3 A2 groups.
It will get results relatively quick. Even though I am using the young woman from my college as my sampling frame the college is not totally representative of society. My questions are mixed, some are open ended and some are closed, this is to find precise yet different answers, the data I shall receive could possibly generalize the general overview of the females at my college.
My primary data, will be presented in qualitative and quantitative format, with paragraphs explaining what I found and pie charts and graphs to show the statistics, which should show the results neater and hopefully be easier to understand.
































Questionnaire Results

The results from the 25 questionnaires I sent out, are as follows;

How old are you?
16 7
17 10
18 7
19 1

Do you think marriage is a good thing in society?
Good 10
Not Sure 13
Bad 2

Do you want to get married?
Yes 14
Maybe 08
No 3

Do you think women are more positive than men towards marriage?
Yes 10
Maybe 11
No 4

Please circle your attitude towards marriage
Positive 12
Neutral 09
Negative 4

The average age that a young women at Wyke sees themselves getting married at is 25 years of age.
Answers ranged from 18 to 30+.





172.8% was Positive
57.6% was negative
129.6% was Neutral

Sociology Coursework

‘Are young women still positive towards marriage?’

Hypothesis

My hypothesis is that young women are still positive towards marriage.

Aim

My aim in this project is to find out what young womens attitudes towards marriage are at my college.

I have chosen this area to research and collect data from, as I find it interesting as marriage is a big decision and a lot of women are very pro-marriage and a lot of women are anti-marriage.

During my childhood marriage was decreasing and had become less popular with the youth of the nineties, I believe a lot of the dying popularity was to do with The Spice Girls, as they were the most popular british band of the mid-nineties, and they promoted ‘Girl Power,’ which I believe gave women the idea that marriage wasn’t so important, and it was all about sticking up for the girls.

But even before the Spice Girls the decline in marriage was becoming apparent in 1981, marriage had declined from 7.1 marriages to 5.9 marriages in 1993, even the average age in men marrying had increased, with people waiting longer to get married, in 1974 the average man would get married at 24, but in 1993, the average man is waiting till he is 28+.

I have found my information in the Wilson and Kidd textbook.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Background information

The Institute's 1990 Becoming Adult study examined, among other things, the attitudes to marriage and expectations of marriage in a group of 23- year-olds, the results they came up with from both sexes ended up in this chart;

The meaning of marriage: types of response by sex

Men Women

Lifetime commitment, permanence: 64% 57%

Responsibility - children, house: 24% 29%

Caring, sharing, support each other: 13% 28% Trust, honest, love 8% 22%

Outdated or irrrelevant institution 8% 14%

Stability, security 2% 17%

Generally important 8% 11%

Compatibility, happiness, bonding 7% 9%

Very wary, sceptical about it 10% 6%

Not sure, have not considered it 9% 0%

Note:

Percentages total more than 100 because people could list as many responses as they liked.

The most frequent response, regardless of sex, was that marriage is a 'lifetime commitment' or means a 'permanent relationship'. Women more often than men mentioned caring, sharing, support, honesty, trust and love (50 per cent compared with 21 per cent). They also more often spoke of stability and security as aspects of marriage (17 per cent compared with 2 per cent). Although there were both women and men who said they were opposed to marriage as an institution, only men said they were unsure of its meaning. One young man said: 'It probably doesn't mean a lot to me because I haven't really given it a great deal of thought

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Methodology

For the practical part of my project on young women’s attitudes to marriage I am using stratified random sampling I am using females from my college and splitting the group into 5 by giving questionnaires to 5 different tutor groups. It will get results relatively quick and the results can be made to look attractive and I already go to the same college and it wont be hard to get data back. My questions are mixed, some are open ended and some are closed, this is to find precise yet different answers, the data I shall receive could possibly generalize the general overview of the females at my college. My primary data, will be presented in qualitative and quantitative format, with paragraphs explaining what I found and pie charts and graphs to show the statistics, which should show the results neater and hopefully be easier to understand.

Brief and Research

For my foundation project I decided to create a magazine for an alternative teenager girl.
I have chosen to do this because I feel that I will be able to produce something of a hopefully high standard, something which is original and fresh. It will also hopefully improve my computer skills, and media skills. The task is for me to show my understanding of media concepts by producing my own media text.
I have been researching what type of magazine I wanted to make and came up with the idea of a crossover idea.
By using conventions of a music magazine and a teenage girl magazine I can combine the two and make an ‘alternative teen girl magazine.’
My project will be a magazine for teenage girls that like alternative music, it will be called Retro Girl, I like this name as it is direct to the point, and sounds quite snazzy.
My project is about music and fashion, and will fit with teenage girl conventions and contain music magazine conventions, it will be directed at 16-19 year old girls with a liking for alternative fashion and music such as The Strokes, The Libertines and more.
For my research I have found sales figures on www.emap.com and some interesting work from other sites too, I have produced questionnaires to investigate what my audience will be wanting to see.
From my results I will be able to change things about my magazine to help make it perfect my core audience.
Also in my research I have bought, researched and analysed J-17, Sugar, Bliss, NME, Q and BANG.
I have also looked at conventions;
Colours-colours on teenage girl magazines are pastel colours which are associated with girls from birth, yellows and oranges which are fresh, invigorating, energetic and bright, bright is always good as it is uplifting, pinks and reds are connotated as romantic which is a big part of a girls magazine. Purples and gold’s are used to give off expensive and valuable ideas, what girls want to be.
Content in girls magazines is the same in each, nearly every girl magazine has all of the following in;
Similar embarrassing stories, fashion, cosmetics, celebrities, shocking stories, horoscopes and relationship help/advice as it is important for girls at the age to know ups and downs and ins and outs.
Music conventions aren’t as easy to summarize, as it varies from each magazine, Q is very serious about music and artists it features all genres and features different artists.
Kerrang! Hosts more dark stars, such as Marilyn Manson, it caters for gothic alternatives and doesn’t try and sell every music, there wouldn’t be an advert for Girls Aloud as it doesn’t fit in with the audience. The NME is based largely upon the ‘indie’ scene which I have chosen to base my magazine on.
Music magazines have a goal and that goal is to sell the rock and roll lifestyle.
The way girls magazines sell lifestyles is by selling the girl we all aspire to be.
Word count::505

Planning

In the planning stage of my project I looked at my research to get an idea of what my project would need to get to what I wanted it to be.
The first thing I did was brainstorm everything!
Names, content, advert, what was going to be in it and more, anything that I imagined I needed in my project to appeal to my audience (can be found in appendix.)
After this I decided to make some sketches of how I wanted my layout to be on the front page, after all it is what attracts the buyer.
When I had made a temporary layout I decided to look at fonts and appropriate colours.
I also need to make a contents page to define my audience more, with knowing what I wanted in the magazine I could create a Retro Girl reader profile which helped me make the magazine planning easier because I knew what I would need to create a magazine for this audience.
I planned an idea for my advert, my advert idea was from flicking through Cosmo Girl and looking at the adverts they had and they had far more shoe adverts than other adverts so I decided to make a shoe one, which I could use original images in.
My double page spread is going to be a fictitious review and history of a band called Azure Mae, modelled on Azure Ray (one of my favourite bands.)
I will use conventions from both music and teenage girl magazines and these can be seen in the article because on one side it focuses on the bands musical background and one the other page it has a quiz with us about boys and our favourite things, so it can be recognised as an alternate teen girl magazine.
I think my magazine will hopefully be easily recognisable by alternative teenage girls and that it will hopefully fit in with conventions.
I quite often spent free lessons and dinnertimes in the computer rooms trying different things and looked for images that I could use in my magazine along side of my own images I would use.
When I had some trouble with thinking about the layout and how it should be, I looked at J-17 and took part of that layout and part of the NME’s content page layout, to include all conventions.
Because my magazine is a crossover I will definitely need to use the conventions of both magazines to make sure everything is covered.
I am aiming to produce a successful, conventional, teenage girl magazine with added conventions of music magazines.
Word count:437

Construction

When I started to work on my magazine, I need to use a computer, so to be on the safe side I used the computers at my college to make sure I could easily print it out and easily access it, also using a computer makes it neater, accurate, less mistakes and is a higher standard.
For the majority of my magazine I used, Windows Publisher as I found it easy to work with and enjoyed learning new ways to do things on it, I also used some internet sites to host my images, www.photobucket.com, this was where all my original images where put, I got certain images of www.google.com.
I edited my original images at home, using Jasc Paintshop and Photoshop, then put then on the internet where I could retrieve them at college. In total I have used 8 original images, which I took myself and hosted myself.
For my original images I used my own digital camera, model-Casio QV-R51.
Nearly of all my work went to plan, with few changes, the advert page, was probably the worst, I couldn’t seem to make things align, and every time I closed the document when I re-opened it it would all be different sizes! After that the changes I made were for the best and you can see in the appendix, slight changes to each page in the magazine so its easy to see the final finished result. The only page I completely changed was an extra page I had put in, it wasn’t very clear what it was, it was supposed to be a feature, but didn’t work very well, so I changed it, and hopefully made it more clear.
The main things I changed in the construction was the font, colours and layout, but that was fun, because it was interesting seeing where other images could go.
I printed everything I did out, so I could see the changes I had made, mistakes and things that I liked, this made it easier for me to think what should I do next.
One problem I did have, was font and colour, I couldn’t really make up my mind, whether to use one major font and colour or to try different ones, in the end I mixed things up and did a variety which I feel benefited my front cover.
One thing I really like on my magazine is the logo-the pink lips, I think it adds a more feminine touch and looks quite conventional as a logo, I found it on a website called www.myspace.com.
Word Count:435



Evaluation


Overall I think my project is fairly good. I do think I could have done a bit more research and presented better.
I feel if my magazine was to compared to an existing text, it wouldn’t differ to much, but still wouldn’t have the actual look to it.
My layout could have been a lot better, but I don’t have the experience or resources, an actual publishing house have!
The part I most enjoyed doing my project was definitely the construction, because it gave me a chance to try new things on the computer, and was fun!
I do think if I had spent more time on it I could have had it looking a lot more professional, and made it look more realistic, but I am happy with the overall product.
It turned out better than I imagined, because we were told to get on with it ourselves it made it more personal and enjoyable.

Word Count (in total)::1534

The Big Lebowski Lois O’Neal

How far does the opening sequence of ‘The Big Lebowski’ conform to genre and narrative expectations?

For this essay we could choose from two questions, I chose this one to look at the opening sequence and genre and narrative expectations, I am going to study and identify the expectations.
At the beginning of The Big Lebowski, we are immediately introduced to the iconography of a western, leading us to believe it is.
We expect it to be a western due to the heavy use of western iconography.
We are shown a camera tracking over fields, as if searching for something, then the voice-over begins with a very stereo-typical red-neck, western era voice, to hint that he is a cowboy and we are about to watch a western.
We then see a view of city lights, which switches us back to modern-life, and then cut to tumble-weed searching across the city, which could be identified as a contrast to the city life, it then rolls on to a beach and we can see its late night/very early morning.
The font of the title/credits is rather retro, playbill with the names in green, indicating mix of genre. The font is what you would expect of western style, not necessarily found in a western film, but is recognised as western iconography.
The tumble weed then rolls into some sort of supermarket and the camera is the level of the tumble weed and we see the Dude, the voice over is repeatedly telling us “..there is a man..” not only reinforcing the protagonist role of the Dude, but emphasizing the idea of the Dude being a hero.
We are then taken back to the Dudes house, where we are instantly thrown into the disruption, where we are shown the investigative manner of the film with the thugs in the Dudes house shouting, “..Where is the money Lebowski..”, we then see some of the Dudes humour come out in this scene, where we are introduced to his wise-cracking manner.
The disruption, is one of the thugs urinating on the Dudes rug.
After seeing a little bit of this sequence we are shown elements of two different genres, Western and Film Noir.
The iconography of Film Noir is where The Big Lebowski fits in more, while misleading us to believe it is a western, it is giving us all of the Film Noir expectations, such as, starting in L.A, with neon-lights, use of shadow, the tumble weed searching for something, its curious, investigative, the story is non-linear, with a voice over and we are thrown into a tale of crime and money, with the thugs attacking him for money.
Through the film I expect it to be non-linear, due to the fact it started non-linear and I presume it will end that way.
I also presume the film will be central to the Dude as he was the first person we are introduced to, and we were given the idea of him been a protagonist, from the voice over.
Also the film is called The Big Lebowski, and he denies that his name is Lebowski at the disruption and refers to himself as the Dude so we should expect another Lebowski, when they realise they have made a mistake.
Starting from the supermarket we can recognise the narrative will be subjective and restrictive.
From the beginning we can see the film is going to be difficult to comprehend, due to the mix of genres confusing us, in just the opening sequence we can see the story is, convoluted and the main theme at the beginning is mistaken identity (the thugs mistaking The Dude to be The Big Lebowski.)
The Big Lebowski, from the beginning to the end carries on with Film Noir, iconography and the plot stays very convoluted and the themes become mistaken identity and conflict.
The plot has several things going on at once, we only know what the Dude knows, until a scene near the end of the film. After this it becomes apparent what happened.
Circumstances change the Dude and our opinion, making the Dude a causal agent.
The film carries on using the method of flashback, we are witnessing what happened, we are being told a story.
We are being told a story through a cause and effect chain, also using the Todorov Theory,
Antagonist-protagonist-disruption-quest-equilibrium-re equilibrium.
We also get to learn about Americans slightly, down to the bowling alley, it has all the bright lights of Los Angeles under one roof, where anybody could go, it is an equalizer between social classes, and the Dude is one and the Big Lebowski is another, but at bowling every one is the equal.
The narrative of The Big Lebowski, also lives up to Film Noir, and continues the flashback sequence, and the Dude remains the central character.
Therefore the Big Lebowski changes your expectations, at the beginning we are shown western iconography and expect a western story, but when it changes into Film Noir, we then expect the iconography and narrative to go with that idea.
So it conforms with genre and narrative, and we expect this, but only because it changes our mind for us!



Word Count:
898

Sociology Coursework
‘Are young women still positive towards marriage?’

Hypothesis
My hypothesis is that young women are still positive towards marriage.

Aim
My aim is to find out what young women’s attitudes are towards marriage.
When I was growing up, marriage had started to become un-popular, I believe a lot of the popularity loss was down to the Spice Girls, as their marriage was to promote Girl Power, and at the time I was all for it, and dreamt I would never get married.
However, from growing older, and accepting different attitudes, I now would definitely want to get married. I now see marriage as a positive institution and see it as being important to me.
I would like to find out what other girls my age feel towards marriage, whether they see it as insignificant or very important I think it will be interesting to find out.
Though the decline of marriage had started way before the Spice Girls started to promote such Girl Power, from 1981, marriage has declined from 7.1 marriages to 5.9 marriages in 1993, even the average age in men marrying has increased with people waiting longer to get married, in 1974 the average man would get married at 24, but in 1993, the average man is waiting till he is 28+.
I have found my information in the Wilson and Kidd textbook.

Methodology
The method I have chosen to collect my data will be random sampling.
I have chosen to give out questionnaires as it is the quick and easy way to collect results and find information.
The sampling frame I have set is teenage girls between the ages of 16 and 19, that study at the same college as I do.
I shall give out 4 sets of 5 questionnaires to 4 different tutor groups at my college, and shall hopefully receive back interesting results, doing it through 4 different tutor groups, should bring a wider variety of answers then, handing them out and receiving them back.
After receiving and interpreting my data I shall represent it in quantitive and qualitative data, to show what I found out.
The final question on my questionnaire will be made into a pie chart display.

Word Count:381

Incorrect
"myspace, a place for friends"

"myspace, a place for people with no friends"
CORRECT

Music’Ull

I’m putting together a new magazine for Hulls ever-growing music scene.
I am looking for people to review gigs and C.D’s, photographers and artists.

If you are interested contact:
x_one_armed_scissor_x@hotmail.com

Or speak to me over MSN

Lois Mae :-)

P.S people needed from EVERY genre.

 

There is a man holding a megaphone, so he must have been the voice of God. The bystanders claimed they saw angels flying up and down the block. Well, they must have been attached to wires. I'd seen one laying in the lawn with a broken arm, so I called 911. Well that is one less founded opinion. One more cause for a dispute. So the street filled, like a basin, up with cameras and their crews and they washed away the rumors leaving just the concrete truth. It was a spectacle. No, I-I mean a miracle. So then I fell like that girl from a balance beam. A gymnasium of eyes were all holding on to me. I lifted one foot to cross the other and I felt myself slipping. It was a small mistake. Sometimes that is all it takes.

Now I'm staring at my wrist, hoping that the time is right. When the planets will align. There will be no planets to align. Just the carcass of the sun and those little painted marbles spinning senseless through an endless black sky. [and so it never started and it will never stop just like I am and you are] It was in a foreign hotel's bathtub I baptized myself in change. And one by one I drowned all of the people I had been. I emerged to find the parallels were fewer. I was cleansed. I looked in the mirror and someone new was there. But, I was as helpless as a chess piece when I was lifted up by someone's hand and delivered from the corner my enemies had got me in. But in all of my salvation I still felt imprisoned inside that holding cell that is myself.

So I wait for the day when I'll hear the key as it turns in the lock and the guard will say to me, "Oh my patient prisoner you have waited for this day and finally you are free! You are free! You are freezing." Now I'm staring at the sun, waiting for it to explode. Because a day is gonna come, don't know when but it will come and we'll finally know the way out of here. And I will throw away this wrinkled map and my chart of stars and compass, cracked. And I'll climb that tree all wet with sap to avoid the hungry beasts below. I'll cut out my love's tongue and sing of a graveyard gray and a garden green and then we won't have to worry no more. No we won't ever wonder again about how this song or story ends about how this song and story will end.

heylo got a new journal :-) again
if anyone wants to add me its
__lechatnoir

thats two underscores

hehe
hope you add me

my boyfriend is better than yours

i had a thought today
the world is round.
maybe not my own thought.
but i thought about it.
my life goes in a line, with no squiggles, curves or dots.
but in a line.
i'm going to start off here, delete the past and give up/forget/leave behind/hate anything/anyone that i don't care about anymore.</p>

minus jack.
because i truely believe he is my future.

 from now till forever.

i won't be jealous or paranoid, ill make my own way.

ill try it anyway.

 

this years been boring coz no-one died (linzy told me too!)

 she is better than you :-|

and we all know that but jacks pretty good too :-)

 

yawn having fun with the linzyator and i won her at snap quite purely because i am the snap champ!

foreverrrrrrrr

lol

bye x

 

 

linzy says dont do drugs

 

i want to be the one who holds his hands when he is wrinkly.


nuff said


im addicted to gj!